It's Going 2 Be A Very Tough Semester...

I don't know what is actually in my mind right now. I suddenly remember few words that was adviced by Kak Sae'i one year ago at matriculation centre...

"Jai, I know you are a good student. Kau rajin dan kerja keras. tapi, aku takut kau akan abaikan diri kau sendiri dan pelajaran kau. Kalau ada 100 orang macam Jai kat matrik ni, semua benda pon boleh setel dengan mudah. But, sumtimes you should know the right time when you must say "NO" to few things. Ingat Jai... tolong, tolong jugak. tapi kita kena ingat jugak bahawa buat baik tu biarlah berpada-pada..."

That's why short semester is not a very good semester to be busy with all NCCAC stuffs. Although there are no upcoming grand events this semester, but I am very busy attending so much meeting almost every night, preparing so many grand events for the upcoming semester. Now, I'm actively involved in IPRMSA (BAKSIS: Trip To Chini), MRC (Educational Trip to China) and AKHI (CENSERVE: Humanitarian Week) and now I'm still pending whether I will be offered to join the CONVEST 06' or not. Again, Kak Sae'i's whisper came into my mind...

I have 2 assignments that must be submitted next week and I don't even start typing yet. In addition, my computer cannot be use. No money to repair it. Oo... God. Why I am SOOOOO lazy and bz this semester... Joining a program, a society... means become a part of them. And that means responsbility, trustworthness, reliable and hope to the other members. You can't put them in a lower priority just like that. But that's it. I cannot be at two or more places at the same time. I will choose to attend one of all the events if they are going to clash.

What do you think how the others feel if I can't attend their meetings? I was trusted by them, with all kinds of responsbility and job scopes. But all of you should remember, when the time is come, I will and must put all this co-curricular activity aside and focus on my assignments and study. But...did I dare to do that? I don't think so... It's very hard for me to let all of you down... Again, Kak Sae'i's whisper came to my mind...